I don’t really know how to write the first post of a blog, but basically I am starting this blog as a fun project to sort of have somewhere to talk “out loud”. Since I moved to the other side of the world I feel like I live on a deserted island, and being in my late 20s it’s hard to make friends because most people already have their group of friends. I’ve always loved creative writing, and doing creative things in general. I wanted a space where I could bring a lot of the things I want to do into consciousness because it’s so easy to become complacent and unmotivated with the minutiae of every day life. Coming from a family where depression is also genetic it is easy to want to just fall into that dark frame of mind and not do anything, so I want to push myself to really make the things I want happen.
I think it was about 5 years ago or longer when The Secret came out and everyone was really into the idea of visualization and understanding the law of attraction. I think a lot of people, including myself, also thought that every thought we had was going to manifest itself immediately, so anytime I’d have a negative thought I’d freak out and think I was screwing up my life! But I think it is possible to really create the exact life that you want; I hope so anyway! It seems like you just really have to be sure of what you want, and be specific. You can’t just say that you want a big house, or a luxury car, or to be a millionaire. Not only do you have to be specific, you have to have pure intent and purpose behind it. Just wanting to be a millionaire so you can buy designer goods and be on permanent vacation isn’t going to cut it. What you want to make happen has to truly be what would make you feel joy in your life, and like you’re alive, and living your true purpose. It’s what makes you feel passionate. I’m sure we’d all love a BMW and a brand new house on the beach, but if that’s not completely aligned with your true purpose then it’s not really worth pining over. Also, once you are really living the life you have created for yourself, a lot of those things can come naturally.
Regardless, I feel like the message of that documentary was there long before it came out. What really resonates with me is when I speak to people much older than myself, like a family friend who is almost 70 and retired and he himself told me that, “You have to be the mastermind of your own life. You create your life, whatever you want it to be, it’s up to you.” I think the best people to learn from are often people with the most experience. Just looking at how I think now compared to when I was 18 for example, is completely different. The older you get the more you realize what’s really important in life. So to hear people in retirement tell me that life should be about whatever I want it to be, and all the trivial things, the obligations, are not worth the time, really makes you stop and think.